The Months You Were On My Heart Gave Birth To Love

Sweet and precious girl,
you have been on my heart
since the moment I heard
that your mother was pregnant.
To hear of your life forming
inside the womb of my friend,
a joy in me was also birthed.
You were on my heart,
your wee little form yet unseen
and the expectation of one day
welcoming you into my family.
Then some news came.
It was a hard thing to hear
and even harder to accept.
You were on my heart even more
than ever before.
How all of me wished
that the news we heard was wrong
and you’d be whole and healthy.
How I wish that a wish,
wished with my entire being
could bring it into existence.
I prayed and cried,
cried and prayed.
The months went by
and you grew inside your Mom.
On my heart you continued
to grow and you grew very fond.
Then the moment
your Mom’s water broke.
It was time for you to come.
I didn’t want to miss out
on you coming into the world
and to see your sweet face.
But labor came at a steady pace
and I had to go home.
Next morning
you came rather sudden.
And even though I wasn’t there
and you eased into eternity,
my heart was on you.
How love buds when someone
is on your heart.
Even before a person is seen
or even heard,
you can love that someone.
I was worried that I may not
have gotten to see you
because I wasn’t able to come
to the hospital until later
in the day.
But you were there when I arrived.
And I couldn’t wait to kiss
your soft little cheek.
And when I finally got to see you
after the months and months,
you were as precious
and as beautiful as I could ever
imagine.
You truly were, sweet one.
Wrapped in the softest pink
with cap to keep warm
your tiny and delicate head.
Little curls of hair seen.
Little eyes and tiny little nose.
Tiny little fingers.
I held you close and
grateful for the gift
of that long awaited kiss.
And the tears that gushed,
I couldn’t hold.
And all the months of longing
came in rivers.
I’m grateful for you little girl.
I’m glad that you came.
I will never ever forget you.
Thank you for filling
a part my heart with love
and care for someone
other than myself
and helping make me
a  much better and deeper
person.
I  love you Eveline Sparrow.
And always will.